I do enjoy allot of things and believe that you should see life in all its beauty. Very few things get me down because I make an effort to look for God's grace and absolute beauty in a world that is falling apart. I love driving to work even though it is 15 minutes away there is this one little section on a hill that has some kind of trees with flowers that have the absolute best smell. It reminds me of God and his goodness. I also can be reminded of God and his beauty driving to uni, which conveniently is also 15Min's away as there is this strip of these trees that kinda curve over each other around the road so going through them you get sun rays spitting at you through the peep holes of the branches. I'm so thankful of these things God puts in our life as I believe God gives us these moments to realise that he is in every good thing and to also just remind us of him. This life is really a life meant to be lived for him after all.
so God teach me today, show me today and help me to go today.
The fear of losing my memory. this is a struggle and fear that is rising up in me more and more this year. its not a fear of total loss of memory but have you ever forgotten what you wanted to say and certain words you want to say but you cant remember them? well this happens to me alot, I forget words and it frustrates me sooo much so when I'm trying to write essays in uni and also public speaking without notes it affects it. So I struggle day to day with why I have this, I know its small to what some people have to live with but I still feel annoyed that I cannot change it. I see that God too can feel like this as he sees so many things but cannot change them because he has given us free will. I don't understand how God is not weeping 24/7? yes he delights in his children who love and follow him but even we stuff up and then there is those that hate him and who do cruel things in this world! God you are quite something. So I give my fears to God for tomorrow for I know that God uses the little things in life to teach us about himself. So I trust God that in every fear and joy and battle lost and won that he will always be by my side being my biggest cheerleader because I cannot run this race alone.